I finally got over what I thought I should look like and fell in love with who was looking back at me every time I stared into the mirror, but that was only half the battle. The other half was indeed still a battle in my mind but it was more than that. It was a battle against my mind. In my heart I knew that I was created for more and destined for greatness, but with my mind I refused to believe that I could do it. You see I had gotten so used to crawling along the ground and bottom feeding that despite my beautiful wings and my ability to fly, I was often tempted (and even more often succumbed to the temptation) to crash into the ground, crawl and frolic in the mud, and bottom feed among the other caterpillars. It is not until Beautiful Petals came along that I began to soar.
The wingless existence of my past beckoned strongly and despite the discomfort and awkwardness of trying to crawl with wings sticking out of my back, I pushed through and only succeeded in making things more uncomfortable and loudly awkward.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others. —Marianne Williamson
I finally got it after several failed attempts and countless rejections. You see the thing about the caterpillars in your life is that they never accepted you before, they will never again accept you, yet they don’t want you to soar but can’t stand to have you crawl close to them. That is such a wretched attitude! I pray that I will never be that to someone else’s dreams.
Marianne Williamson got it right – my light scares a whole lot of people. Some will talk behind my back, some will tell me to my face, some will ignore me, some will annoy me, some will try to put you down and others will outright try to kill you.
Today I implore you to get out of your own way and stop self sabotaging yourself, Get out of your own way and silence your voice in your own way. Your wingless existence was just a passing thing and yet you tried to make life-long decisions based on that season.
Today, spread your wings and learn new ways in which to fly.
You are Beautiful – Empowered – Visionary
You are @BeautifulPetal_