“I always tell you – I don’t know why you haven’t met your husband yet (or maybe you have and don’t know. I’m not sure) But what I do know is that God loves you so much and he chose YOU specifically to do some work. That business isn’t finished yet . When it is, the season will pass and it will be your time to be a wife and mother. It’s not the season yet for that. He still needs you. And I promise you, you will be amazed at how many of us will be there to support you and celebrate with you.”
That’s the conversation I had a few minutes ago with a friend of mine. Shes actually more than a friend. More than a sister, She’s one of my angels. There are different categories of people in your life. You have acquaintances and you have friends. In the friends you have your angels / inner circle. You have those you’re pouring into who are learning from you. You have those you lean on for certain areas of your life to grow and you have those who while they may have certain intimate information about you, have outgrown the inner circle and are no longer useful to your dream. This one is an angel. She is my inner circle. We’ve known each other since i first bumped into her on my first day of freshman year in college. We became fast friends (even though she thought I was extremely snooty and snobbish at first) and we have laughed and lived through 18 years of a beautiful friendship.
To put the various categories in perspective, I have another friend – known her eons – but the last time we spoke about my relationship status, she felt that I was praying amiss and I wasn’t listening for God to speak. She felt that if God intended for me to be married, I’d be long married by now. I know she never meant to hurt me with those words – but they stung all the same. Sometimes carrying someone else’s vision (most times actually) means that even if you don’t understand it, you support them.
Back to my conversation with my angel: Over the years, a lot of people have told me a lot of stuff about why I’m not married. A lot of people have shielded their husbands and married lives from me – after all, I’m just the single chick who can’t seem to get it together in this relationship business. I’ve had people come to me for advise then turn it down because of my status – more than once actually, I’ve been told to me face: “What do you know – after all, you’re not married” or my favorite “You don’t get it – you’ll understand once you’re married”. I know there are things that I may never get until that point in my life – but there is also grace to receive divine revelation and divine wisdom and above all there is grace to be kind.
So let me get to the point: There are people: Amazing men and women – who have carried this dream with me – sometimes even when I couldn’t carry it myself, when I didn’t have the strength or the joy or the willpower – they kept the fire burning. I look at them and i am both amazed and humbled at the faith they have for me. My own faith sometimes seems to fade but they are always there reminding me in the dark what God has said about my future and my hope and how He is bringing me to my expected end as I walk down the isle into wife-hood and motherhood. Today this angel put something into perspective:
- There IS a plan. My failure to see it or understand the finer, more intricate workings does not negate that the existence of the plan.
- Until this assignment is complete, I cannot move onto the next assignment and season.
So today as I sit here listening to @FredHammond‘s single “Lord Have Your Way” from his latest album “I Will Trust”, I pledge to trust God with my emotions – especially when they threaten to take over and control me. With my moods – especially when I’m having a moment and don’t want to submit. With my joy and laughter, my tears and my sorrow. I will trust you Lord – to the end of this assignment and into my new season: because you created me to fulfill a purpose. I go a step further and pray that you will give me discernment to perceive and courage to fulfill this assignment with Grace. Finally I ask for an acceleration to complete this assignment and walk into my new season.
And so to every person out there who will read this blog today, tomorrow or in the eternity of the world wide web, if you are trusting God for something: If you are waiting on a person, a place or a thing to manifest: if you have no more strength to believe but don’t know how to let go; If you have been hurt and are struggling to forgive and to heal: and especially to my ladies in waiting as they trust God for a husband: The Bible says in the book of Isaiah 34:16
Isaiah 34:16Amplified Bible (AMP)
16 Seek out of the book of the Lord and read: not one of these [details of prophecy] shall fail, none shall want and lack her mate [in fulfillment]. For the mouth [of the Lord] has commanded, and His Spirit has gathered them.
That is the Word of the Lord. So today I beseech you, let go of pain and prejudice and search His heart to understand what you must accomplish in order to release you into the next season. HE has ordained it therefore it must come to pass. It’s been known to take 40 years – but it’s also been known to be completed with one spoken word as at creation. Speak it – believe it – walk in it: We will come to celebrate as you walk down that isle.
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