I have had the most amazing month of love. I am in love and not afraid to shout it from the mountaintops. I have spent close, intimate time loving, being loved, kissing, being kissed, fighting, being fought, making up with, being made up with, hugging, being hugged and just falling deeper and deeper in love with my most amazing nephew and niece. It’s hard to imagine what my life was like without them. I spoil them, laugh at their silliness, find cuteness in their farts and burps and generally coo like an imbecile when I’m around them – and I don’t care that I may look like an imbecile. I care only for their attention and reaction because they are my only audience and the only ones I wish to captivate.
I had coffee with a friend the other day and he told me that I was guarded and needed to open up and let people in more. This came as a huge surprise to me simply because I really thought I was an open person. Am I not the one who lays her thoughts and feelings bare on the internet for all the world to see? But the more I thought about it, the more I agree with him. As someone who has hurt and been hurt over the years, I have built layer upon layer of boundary and barrier and regardless of how well I think of myself. the truth of the matter is that I am a closed up individual.
Beautiful Petals opened me up. Layer by layer I am peeling back the hurt and tears and letting go of he bitterness and anger and blossoming into the beautiful woman I was created to be. I am Beautiful, Empowered, Visionary. I am a #BeautifulPetal
When I say those words today and every day that I say them to you, I mean them. I believe them. It’s been a long journey but I have finally come to a place of perfect peace in who I am. I am not perfect, nobody is. But I am me and I must be the best me I could ever be.
So … you may ask … who is Beverly?
I am the daughter of a handsome man and a beautiful woman both of whom I love dearly and have come to respect immensely over the years. I am a woman. Proud of my emotions. Not afraid to show them knowing that I am safe and warm in the loving arms of the Father in heaven through the people he has brought into my life. I strut through life not afraid of my curves and no longer ashamed to show them. I am built like a woman – thunder thighs and child bearing hips. I was built to love and be loved; unadulterated and unabashedly. I love to love and live to be cherished. My hair does not define me – it’s what’s inside that always will. I brood, I sulk, I cry, I laugh, I feel with my soul and my spirit is a whirlwind of colour, sound and smell.
I am Beautiful, Empowered, Visionary. I was created to create. I was created to give life. I was created to worship. I have a dream and I am no longer afraid to follow it. I have a vision and I am no longer afraid to let it shine. I think in techni-colour and sense in high definition. I feel in 5 dimensions and commit in lifetime sentences.
I am a woman. Beautiful, Empowered, Visionary. I have so much to give – won’t you come on this journey with me and discover your inner layers? Peel back the hurt. Let the tears heal. Allow the years to fade and bask in the ray of life. You have a choice: To remain a victim of your circumstance, of to re-write your story and create a new memory. You are BEAUTIFUL, EMPOWERED, VISIONARY. You are a #BeautifulPetal!
So live like today is your last day. Love like this is your first love. Laugh like you don’t care who’s watching. Smell life, grab life, enjoy life. You only have one life to live and this is it. Stop living vicariously through the lives of others. Get up and LIVE. Remember always to never forget that you are: BEAUTIFUL, EMPOWERED, VISIONARY. You are a BEAUTIFUL PETAL!