The Ebb and Flow of my life dictates that the moment I speak of something, I speak it into being and attract that one thing. When I’m shopping for a car and finally decide on the car I want, I suddenly begin to notice that very make and model everywhere I look. When I write about Jacarandas, I look outside my office window and suddenly there they are.
The Ebb and Flow of life dictates that I must submit to those who have authority over me and refuse to be moved by those who do not. The ebb and flow of life directs me to listen not to my own feelings, understanding, sensations and emotions but to lean on God.
They say beauty is only skin deep. I say fear is only mind-deep.
Today, something happened. Something that I have dreaded and feared and broken into a cold sweat over for months now. The waiting and the anticipation and the dread and the nightmares of the past seven months all came crashing down like a lego city stomped out by the giant five-year old who is the emperor of that domain. Everything I imagined and envisioned it to be happened as if in slow motion, but yet in the blink of an eye, and before I knew it, it was over and done with.
And then with that blink of the eye, it couldn’t hurt me anymore. It could never ever hurt me again because it had been demystified and brought down to nothing.
All through as it happened, I kept saying the name of Jesus over and over and over again. That was the only name I could speak. The only name that was on my mind. The only name in my heart and the only name that came out of my lips.
The ebb and flow of my life with Jehovah and with God in my heart dictates that in the blink of an eye, the fear that is only mind-deep will disappear the moment I call on the name of Jesus.
Today I want to say to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ – I love you. Thank you for showing me that while I am the Ebb, you will always be my Flow. When I breathe in and hold on for dear life, you will always remind me to exhale and let go. When I am paralyzed in anticipation, you will always carry me in the wake of your love. When I wonder, you remind me that it is you who is filled with wonder hence wonderful. When those thoughts try to invade, you stand guard and defend without fear and to the death. For I am valuable to you, I am of value, and my value cannot be measured, my worth cannot be contained. So today Jesus, we overcame. And we arose, and we walked on. And we did it because when I was weak, your strength shone through like a ray of sun after a heavy downpour breaking through the cloudy day. Thank you for being my silver lining and my ray of hope today, yesterday, and for all the tomorrows that you have in store for us. I LOVE YOU.
XOXO – From: A-Girl-About-Town