The Education of a Mis-Educated Woman

By October 7, 2012Uncategorized

Sometimes we hit rock bottom emotionally and feel like everywhere we turn, we’re taking a hit. Sometimes it is self-inflicted and sometimes it is totally without provocation on our part. At some point today I felt emotionally weary. As I sat on the bed thinking of how I had missed my daily deadline of midnight, East African Time, my mother (aka my biggest cheerleader) as always by my side, I got a message from a devotional I recently subscribed to. The message therein is shown below:

On this day, God wants you to know… … that the weight you carry on your shoulders is much too heavy for one human being.
Give some of that weight where it belongs, – to God, and have faith that what happens is for the best, whether you understand it or not.
I am brought to my knees and completely submitted to the fact that God hears the cry of my heart even when I don’t allow it to come out of my lips. I am broken by the fact that He loves me in everything, despite everything, through everything, and because of everything.
I spent some time in the presence of some beautiful and mighty women today. It was awesome and we laughed a lot. We talked of the challenges of womanhood in this century for this generation. We touched on how we look at the world, and how or if we judge the world and why it judges us back. And then a very profound and jagged truth was presented to me: When we sow a seed, whether good or bad, wise or unwise, willing and knowing or unwilling and unintentional, THAT SEED WILL GERMINATE AND MANIFEST. The Bible tells me that whatsoever a man soweth, that so shall he reap. So if today I decide to give into insecurities and fears, to depression and anxiety, and then continue to speak about it out loud in negativity or self pity, THAT SO SHALL I REAP. But if I choose to walk in the light and positively, in love and in the undying and irrevocable confidence of God’s love for me, THAT SO SHALL I REAP.
Let me put this into perspective:
  • The World tells me to fight fire with fire; but my Bible tells me that those who live by the sword will die by the sword
  • The World tells me to take no prisoners in my fight to the top; but my Bible tells me that vengeance belongs to the Lord
  • The World tells me that I can do bad all by myself; but my Bible tells me that two are better than one
  • The World tells me I’m an independent woman and what I say goes; but my Bible tells me to submit to my husband
  • The World tells me that I wield all power as a strong, black woman; but my Bible tells me that my burdens are heavy and His yoke is light and that I should leave it at the cross

The World says x, my Bible says y. The world says right, my Bible says left. The world says up, my Bible says down. The World says black, my Bible says white. With all this mis-education, it’s no wonder that the women of today’s generation have a type of spiritual dyslexia which my dictionary tells me is a reading disorder associated with impairment of the ability to interpret spatial relationships or to integrate auditory and visual information. Spiritually we are so confused and tied up in knots that we become incapable of or lose the ability to interpret spatial relationships (existing or pertaining to space or in this case existing or pertaining to all things spiritual). We want to scream but keep silent. We’re crying inside but mask it under a tonne of make-up. We’re really very simple but engage in all manner of James Bond – type shenanigans so much so that we no longer know whether we’re coming or going, progressing or regressing, climbing or falling, swimming or sinking. We are very educated in the art of mis-education and hence end up mis-educating in the guise of educating and at the expense of our spirit [wo]man.

WOW … That’s a mouthful. And a handful. And all other sorts of fulls. No wonder we get weary and lack the power to finish. To all the beautiful, strong and spiritually searching women out there,

On this day, God wants you to know… … that the weight you carry on your shoulders is much too heavy for one human being.
Give some of that weight where it belongs, – to God, and have faith that what happens is for the best, whether you understand it or not.
That is the seed I chose to sow today. The seed I choose to reap tomorrow. That all my tomorrows are in Him and that when my yoke is heavy I can indeed give it to my Father in heaven and He will do the rest. That whether I understand it or not, what happens is for my good and for His glory. Today, I chose faith in His promises to me that are yeah and Amen.

XOXO – From: A-Girl-About-Town

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